"I don't know how much he helped me," she replies, voice low. She's not sure how much she wants to explain what she means by that right now. "Not sure it helped him much either."

Fuck but her heart aches for him. Even now. Even after everything he did to her and all the years that have gone by.

"But whatever. I don't want to get all wrapped up in gloomy bullshit right now, Roland. Not when we are sitting in the middle of an orgy paradise. Tell me something happy! Tell me a good memory."